as you sleep...

 randomly, i became an instant poet... here's a little poem i made for my baby. it just came out, and then i wrote it in my notebook. and here, i want it to share to you. 

As you sleep..

I watch you as you peacefully sleep

One of the many memories i want to keep.

I thank the Lord He gave you to us

When you came what a Joy it was!

We pray you'll always be okay

Because tomorrow is another day to play... 

I hope my baby when he grows up will like this. when i was pregnant i use to write letters for him in a 'lil papemelroti notebook that i always take with me. each time i have something in my mind that i wanted to share to my baby, i wrote it there. but this poem that i compose is something like a lil special that's why i felt like bloggin' it. i just find it so cute. =) i hope you guys liked it too. 

and it's happiness

through life, we have made many definitions of happiness. i would want to think that it actually depends on how we view and live to experience what life is. my happiness may not be exactly the same with how you describe yours it is because one thing for sure is that our individualities allows us to compose our own versions of what makes us happy. At the age of 33, i have already defined what happiness is for me in many ways... experiences have somehow helped me understood its meaning. yet in my present state, again i am dwelling on a different dimension of what for me is happiness as of now. 

i am convinced it goes with age... maturity perhaps. as i see people, friends and relatives flaunt themselves over social media sites about what they refer to as their happiness; the more i get to realize that happiness is indeed relative. and i feel like i don't have the right to criticize of how it is because again, we are diversified. 


so what is happiness for me? well, it has to be enumerated and i guess there are countless reasons for me to be happy and for now, these are the one which i highlighted- what i call my happiness.

• it's to see you giggle. your bright smile lightens my day. those tiny kisses on my cheeks is priceless, and the way you try to enveloped me with your arms is precisely my moment of unexplainable joy. i am in much delight when we hug; Dalvinh. 
• it's because we fight a lot and from there we grow together. it's because we are so different from each other yet we try hard to accept our differences and just say "i love you". i talk a lot and you willingly listen. you work so hard and i take care of you and our son. our marriage may not be that ideal and we may be on our trying times (most of the time) hehehe we have always been certain that of course we do love each other; Alvin.
• it's because it is a blessing to have you as my support group in all many ways. (financial included, hehehe) when i got married i should have been set free but still, i thank the Lord for your intervention. without you i don't know what my married life would have been; mama and tatay. of course my brother ever supportive brother mano jay..and the two other; mano sandy and bodik.
• the "bestest" friends i ever had. we may not see each other often..we may geographically apart, but still in our hearts we will always be the BFF! gem, she and lex.

at times we call it simple joys but its simplicity is what makes us overjoyed. i always come to realize that before we look on big things that we might think will give us bliss... it is those mostly the unnoticed matters that gives us much happiness. 

as a full-time mom, i was able to see what real happiness was. it's free. no much effort is exerted and it voluntarily comes to you everyday. 

coping up.

i realized that days has become faster. i have not been very active with my blog during the previous months and i come to think that in those more than 2 months of silence was an eventful one. i actually have so many things to share yet being a mother and a wife has get me so preoccupied with responsibilities which i need to attend to. being a full-time homemaker we always have to prioritize of course our family. 


i decided that to cope up with the missed months that i had, here are the highlights of what had make me happy which i gladly want to share. =) 

my baby's mickey mouse- filled party


my son's first birthday. November 23, 2011, my son celebrated his first birthday. his mickey mouse themed birthday was indeed a blast. Being a mom who was also his party organizer, i can only thank the Lord for giving me grace and wisdom in making his party an enjoyable one.  

the 8 magazine issue where i'm a part

my 8 magazine stint. Finally! i had my article published in a glossy magazine. =) indeed a dream come true. i was so happy being a part of the OCT-DEC issue of 8 magazine and i thank the 8 magazine team who gave me an opportunity to shine! =) 

the EV Examiner Team and Interns

an editorial job for a local newspaper. i have to accept the offer and for me it's quiet a promotion for more than five years of being a contributing writer of EV Examiner; a weekly newspaper circulating in the Eastern Visayas I am so glad that i am now a part of the Editorial Team. Thank God! =) 

Cantata 2011

church activities. during the last days of November and early weeks of December is busy days for the church and i am glad i am part of it in my own little ways. The celebration of the Church Anniversary, the Christmas Cantata and the Musical Presentation at Robinson was by God's grace, all a success.  

Christmas in our Ancestral Home

the Holidays! i spent so much time savoring the Holiday Cheers! It was an indeed a chance to celebrate with friends, relatives and of course my families. =)

as the first month of 2011 is almost at its end, i hope i can write more entries. This year, i wish to write more and read more. 

SELFLESSNESS.

i once posted in my FB status that Motherhood is synonymous to Selflessness and it just amazed me that actually numbers of friends agree to what i claimed. For those who are mothers like me and for those who knew their mothers that really well, surely can decipher to what it meant. when i became a mother i further understood what being selflesss is all about and that everything boils down to a more appreciation of what my mother have done to us that whatever kind of mother i am now are traces on how she raised us.

 it's not easy to become one and it could be the toughest job on earth one can ever have. i even always joke when friends asked me about what i am up to at present i usually reply " kina-career ko na ang motherhood" which at first i thought was some kind of a funny yet most of the time i get really nice response about it. it has been always " it's the most fulfilling career" or at times " it's the best job on earth" and some friends would envy and say "it's the profession i ever want to practice" and it delights me. at some point, which i have felt i was already left behind, friends would tell how they wanted to be a home maker (full-time) just like what i am now but they just cant.

so how it's like to be a mother and why does it seems to be synonymous to selflessness? it's plainly because motherhood is forgetting about yourself and thinking about how you can give everything at its best for your child; time-effort-love and attention. it is most of the time giving up the things that you wanted to have and thinking about what your child needs. it is to think about the welfare of your child as your top priorities. it is being happy because they are happy and being the saddest when they are lonely.

by God's grace i wanted to be the Godly mother that i have to be... i know it's not gonna be easy but it's a commitment that mothers have to take. to be a selfless mother is also not gonna be easy yet it's the best that you can do for your child and for your family. i am convinced of that.. i just thank the Lord for the greatest blessing of motherhood, in this way; it can always remind me of how selfless He was to us.

captured.

because i find ourselves cute in the candidness of these pictures i tried to collage it. hehehe.. dvd just know it's a camera and it's supposed to take pictures. he knows that when i say "one-two-three say cheese!!" it means smile because you'll be captured. he got used with the camera and i guess he already have hundreds of photos at 11 months old.

DVD

dvd @ 1 day old DWU Hospital

this is Dalvinh. even before he was born, we already fondly called him Baby Dave. He is God's gift to us. It just amaze me that my child is loved by many. He's so adorable and i am saying this not because he is my son but truly people that sorrounds us ( church, family and friends) is evidently showing how he is such a charmer.  it was like extremes. when i had him during my first tri, twas like everything was tough. the time when we were confronted with the trying times of our lives and in our downest-darkest moment he was like kicking inside my womb trying to tell me that i have to hang on. i can really feel that extraordinary strength that he was giving me. a God-given strength through baby dave (",). as i went through months of having him inside me, it was the kicks and the active movements that he made that keep me going despite of the turmoil that i and my hubby has to overcome. 


on the otherhand, it was all joy when he came out. the happiness that he was giving me even levelled-up as i delivered him November 23, 2010. as he grew up he was a cuddly baby. he loves to chuckle. he's fond of smiling. he loves to be played and gives you a hearty laugh when he enjoys it! with all the sadness and hurt that we have to get through during my pregnancy dvd gives us so much joy.

as he came into this world beacons a new beginning for us. i am blessed and became even more blessed. he defined what love is all about. he is a miracle God has given us. he is dalvinh and he is my brighter side of life.

*HITCHED...



our wedding band



The day that i got married marks the biggest turning point of my life. it may be  360 degree turn but i can only be happy of the changes. life has been so different since then and i would say it's the most blessed stage of my life; and when i say blessed it includes the tough and rough times because yes, blessing doesn't only come in the positive form. To give you a gist of how the first chapter of my married life has been; it was like from Jaro to Tacloban then to Vietnam (which we thought we will settle for a long term) and back to Tacloban; our Home. Being back in Tacloban was a chance for us to start a new beggining: A family that we now, enjoy. =)

Dalvinh Verl M. Dave was the reason why we got back to our homeland. he was "made in Vietnam" as they would always tease me, but we needed to move back here and raise him here. Life there in VN was not anymore conducive for us to start a family. It was a bit complicated for me to continue my pregnancy there to start with, and this is because of the cultural and language barriers and with the not so advanced medical practice that they have is another factor. it was a big decision to make but through prayers we have felt that the Lord wanted us to go back to where we belong.

and now I'm hitched, let us talk about it. life for me has become so different after i tied a knot with the man i felt the Lord has given me to have half of my life-time with. marriage i realized is not that easy to have but by God's grace going through this journey makes it more bearable. (hehehe) going through its ups and downs becomes lighter. to thank Him for whatever comes your way; good and bad is a joy ride in a rocky road.

i still can not say that i am having the perfect marriage because i know we still have a long-long way to go. after all, there is no perfect marriage. what i can only tell is that, i am happy. I am happy becuase this is what He has given me.